The Struggle Continues...

So, I had an interview last Monday. It was for a great position. I wouldn't be losing any of the benefits of my current job (with the exception of $50/week for food); I would receive an increase in pay and they would reimburse me for travel. At the time of the interview, I had applied for 9 positions with no response. So, needless to say, I was very excited about the interview.

I felt the interview went well and I was told I would know something by the end of the week (October 17th). 3pm rolled around and still no word. I called the person with whom I had interveiwed to enquire. She said they would make a decision by the end of the month.

Today, I received an email. The position has been filled. I am not the one filling the position. Talk about a great way to start the day! I was very disappointed.

But, while I'm disappointed - even devastated - I know that God has His hand on my life. I don't know what His plan is, but I know He has my best interests at heart. I have to trust Him. And that's a hard thing to do, especially for someone like me. I like to have control of everything in my life. But what I must realize is that if He could create a universe from just spoken words, He can surely handle the ins and outs of my simple life. He is in control.

"He's got the whole world in his hands;

he's got the whole world in his hands;

he's got the whole world in his hands;

He's got the whole world in his hands.

He's got you and me, brother, in his hands;

he's got you and me, sister, in his hands;

he's got you and me, brother, in his hands;

He's got the whole world in his hands."

I'm going to let go and trust Him. Scary? Yes. But, He's in control. So I can sit back and just let Him work.