Learning to Lean

"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart;and lean not unto thine own understanding."
Proverbs 3:5
"There's glorious vict'ry each day now for me,
Since I found His peace so serene;
He helps me with each task, if only I'll ask;
Ev'ry day now I'm learning to lean.
I’m learning to lean, learning to lean,
Learning to lean on Jesus.
Finding more power than I’d ever dreamed,
I’m learning to lean on Jesus. "
~John Stallings

For as long as I can remember, I've heard that song in church. But only as recently as 2 or 3 months ago, did I learn the true meaning of "lean on Jesus". I just got married August 1st to a wonderful man. God truly blessed me when He brought him into my life. But when my husband and I got married, he didn't have a job. (Sure, I had one, but let me tell you, a dietitian doesn't get paid a terrible amount of money!) There were bills to pay - lots of them - and only one paycheck. It was tight! There just wasn't going to be enough money to go around. Now, if you know me well enough, you know that I like to plan everything. I also like to have a sense of control in a situation. Having bills to pay and not enough money to pay them was more than enough to send me over the edge! But, as my father-in-law once put it, "worrying is like sitting in a rocking chair all day: you're doing something, but you're not getting any where". So, my husband and I decided that we would pray about it and leave it for Jesus. We would have to trust him. "Lean not unto thine own understanding." (Prov 3:5) I'm not sure how God did it, but he did. He provided. It was hard for me to let it go. By my understanding, the situation was impossible. But He made a way. Jesus said it best: "With men this is impossible; but with God all things are possible." (Matthew 19:26 KJV)